| Freedom |
[29 Jul 2005|10:55am] |
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Bush -- "Mouth" |
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I went out for the first time in months last night...
and it was amazing!
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| Digital Me!!! |
[21 Apr 2005|10:31am] |
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aud der Maur - "Taste You" |
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Check it out! I'm totally a sim!
Feel free to make fun of me at any time.
I was bored, what can I say?
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| The Plague |
[21 Feb 2005|09:07pm] |
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Probot - "Shake Your Blood" |
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I swear I have some sort of... "hot guy repelling plague".
Either that or I give off the impression that I'm just a good fuck and nothing more.
I don't know why it's impossible for me to fine a guy who likes me and calls me back
after I have sex with them. Maybe I'm bad in bed....
GOD!!!
I'm doomed forever to walk the face of the earth alone. I have no family (that's sane.), I have no friends, I couldn't get a boyfriend to save my life. I can't even go back to my ex boyfriend cause I turned him gay or something.
Is it so wrong that I want to have someone around that isn't interested in my money or my ass?!?
Maybe if I got fat and poor I'd find someone.
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| I'm Ok |
[09 Feb 2005|09:56pm] |
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"give me all your poison,
give me all your pills,
and give me all your hopeless hearts that make me ill.
you're running after something that you'll never kill.
if this is what you want
then fire at will."
-My Chemical Romance, "Thank You for the Venom"
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| That's Hot. |
[03 Feb 2005|11:33am] |
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 lazy |
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Emilie Simon - "Désert" (Theivery Corporation Remix) |
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| Me from A to Z |
[21 Jan 2005|09:49pm] |
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My Chemical Romance - "Thank You for the Venom" |
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Only because I have nothing else to do -- Read it and weep:
A is for age: 20
B is for booze: Grey Goose, Triple Sec, and Cranberry juice.
C is for career: Paparazzi Dodger.
D is for dad's name: Ryohei
E is for essential items to bring to a party:I am the party!
F is for favorite song at the moment: "Teardrop" by Massive Attack featuring Portishead.
G is for girlfriend: Yeah, no. I don't think so.
H is for hometown: PPsh, Tokyo born and raised.
I is for instruments you play: I tried to learn piano when I was younger and hated it.
J is for jam or jelly you like: Strawberry.
K is for kids: Give me five years.
L is for living arrangements: All alone. :(
M is for mom's name: Nori
N is for name of a friend: Haruko
O is for overnight hospital stays: None that I can remember. Maybe when I was born...
P is for phobias: The dark. Yeah, laugh it up.
Q is for quote you like: "Life without love is like a bird without wings."
R is for relationship that lasted longest: Surprisingly enough, Kaz. Ugh.
S is for sexual position: *blush*..............on top.
T is for time you wake up: 7 a.m. Every day.
U is for unique trait/feature: I can dislocate my shoulders and jump through a loop I make with my arms.
V is for vegetable you love: Snow Peas.
W is for worst trait//feature: I'm selfish. I admit it.
X is for x-rays you've had: Do dental x-rays count?
Y is for yummy food you make:I CAN'T COOK!!! RUB IT IN!!!
Z is for zodiac sign: Sagittarius.
Yeah, so now you do it!!
♥
AikO!
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| Frigid |
[21 Jan 2005|01:03am] |
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 cold |
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Blue States - "Season Song" |
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It is so cold in here. My fingers are numb. The thermostat says its normal, but my fingers are telling me otherwise. I'm wearing a sweater, jeans, and two pairs of socks. IT'S FREEZING!!
Why is it that when girls go on dates they just sit around and wait for the phone to ring for the next couple days afterwards? I feel so dumb, I'm just hanging out waiting for the phone to ring and so far today the only people that have called me are Haruko. FIVE TIMES!!!! (I hope you're reading this, you dork.)
...and my aunt. ( Cue Psycho music now. )It was kind of weird...
She never calls me unless she wants something and today, she didn't want anything. At least, I don't think she did. She probably does and just didn't want to ask me. She's so weird. Too many drugs.
I updated my journal appearance. Yeah, I know, you know that already. I just felt the need to announce it.
Aren't the colors pretty? Ooooh, aaaaah!
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| New Year! |
[01 Jan 2005|11:08am] |
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Noir Désir - "Oublié" |
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Yeah, so Happy New Year!
2005 is officially upon us and I know what you are thinking and no, I did not get wasted last night.
I actually had a very quiet evening at my friend Haruko's parents' home. It was nice. We ate lots of good food, had some champagne and just relaxed, let me tell you it was nice.
I haven't decided upon a New Year's Resolution. I've already kicked most of my bad habits since dad died. I don't party much anymore, I already eat healthy and exercise. I don't smoke. I'm pretty much a goody two shoes anymore. I'm lame. ^___^
The only think I can think of is to finish school...
What's your new year's resolution?
♥
Aiko!
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| Stike One |
[29 Dec 2004|01:02pm] |
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mood |
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 embarrassed |
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Muse - "Endlessly" |
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Hmm...
Yesterday was interesting in so many ways.
You know that guy I was talking about, well, his daughter, who happens to be about 3 years younger than me walked in on us kissing. We were ONLY KISSING, it wasn't even that big of a deal, but she completely flipped out.
I guess I understand why, but she was so mean!! Let me quote some of the things she said:
"..you're just like every other two-bit herpes-controlled-by-an-everyday-pill-that-prevents-my-outbreaks, facelifted and liposuctioned assbanged bitch that's slinging eightballs in douche bags for the man on the mean, green streetcorner--" Yeah. Ouch. Can you believe that?! I'm not a slut, I've only been with three guys my entire life!! Ok, so I've dated more guys than that, but I didn't sleep with all of them. The point is, I never know what to say when someone is yelling at me and it sucks.
Sometimes I wish that I was a little more outspoken, I probably would have stood up for myself, but no, once again someone gets in my face and I back down like a puppy being threatened with a rolled up newspaper. I don't now what my problem is. I don't know why I feel guilty, I mean, I didn't do anything wrong, I didn't do anything illegal... I had never even met her before...
ARRRRGGGHHHHH!!!! This is so frustrating.
Anyway, I have to go, my pilates instructor is waiting.
♥
Aiko
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| Bad Crush |
[14 Dec 2004|08:44am] |
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bored |
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Hot Hot Heat - "Bandages" |
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Yeah so, I kind of like this guy...
...but its one of those things where it just isn't realistic. I mean, he's older, and kind of taken already...
I don't even know where I am going with this so I'll just shut up about it now.
****
Anyway, things have been kind of boring lately. Haruko is out of the country with her dad, she went to some sort of video game convention in California this week. Sometimes I think she is so lucky because boys just flock to her because her dad is a video game warlord. The point is, she's out of the country so I have no one to hang out with. Stupid friends.
I finally won a game of solitaire. My computer hates me. I think it's time to get a new one.
♥
Aiko
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| Pictures!! |
[22 Nov 2004|04:33pm] |
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The Cure - "Last Dance" |
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My friend Haruko took this picture today...
I look so...enlightened!
♥ Aiko!
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| Breathe it in... |
[21 Nov 2004|12:51am] |
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K's Choice - Not an Addict |
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I'm feeling kind of creative tonight, but I'm not sure exactly how to go about taking care of that.
...maybe I'll paint my toenails with polka dots or something time consuming like that.
I really am lame. Really.
Life has really slowed down quite considerably. I've been 'advised' to go back to school and take some business management courses so that I can at least manage my inheritance when I am older. I'll think about it.
I miss my friends.
Things are just so different now.
I want to go out.
Maybe if I'm creative, I can...
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| Photographic Lonliness |
[16 Sep 2004|12:21am] |
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 grumpy |
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Portishead - "Teardrops" |
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This is one of the photos from my last shoot. I doctored it a little
just to make it more interesting...Can you guess what it will be
selling?
Things really haven't returned to normal like I thought that they would...I seem to be experiencing the 'snowball effect'. One thing after another.
I wanted to go out tonight, but everyone that I wanted to be with
wants to be with their significant others. Haruko even has a date
tonight. So, it seems that I am left with my computer, fuzzy
slippers, and ice cream. It isn't so bad, it just makes me wish that
I had someone too. I'd like to share it, any takers? ;)
Its just too hard to find someone who is sincere. Sure, I could go out and get laid any night I wanted to, though waking up alone is never fun. I feel as though I am going through a mid-life crisis and I'm only 19.
I think I need a vacation.
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| Adventures in Babysitting |
[29 Aug 2004|07:06pm] |
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mood |
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chipper |
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Jem - "Wish I" |
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I'm a babysitter now.
Who would've thought?
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| Time in Between |
[23 Aug 2004|12:45pm] |
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 tired |
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None |
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Getting out lately hasn't been easy.
Avoiding cameras, dodging provoking interviewers, it's harder than I ever thought that it could be.
I'm tired too.
Physically, I feel like I can no longer move.
Mentally, I've lost something. Though I am not sure what it is.
Haruko is forcing me to go out tonight, however, she says it will be good for me. I don't know where I want to go, though. Nothing sounds exciting anymore..
Just bury me already.
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| Around the Fur |
[16 Aug 2004|06:10am] |
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 exhausted |
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music |
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The Deftones - "Head Up" |
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Hey Vanity, this vile is empty. So are you.
Hey Glamourous, this vile's not god, anymore.
Speak, I don't get it
Should I ignore the fashion
or go by the book?
I dont want it,
I just want Your eyes fixated on Me
Coming Back
Coming Back
Around the Fur
The Deftones - "Around the Fur"
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| Sting |
[12 Aug 2004|12:38am] |
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mood |
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 drained |
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music |
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Portishead - "Teardrops" |
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When something is taken from you, it's painful.
When you take something from yourself, it stings.
Like a hornet ripping into your heart with its toxic
stinger.
The burning in my mind is insatiable. In light of
today's happenings, I'm not sure where I stand.
I've never been so lost or confused in my life.
I wish I had someone here to hold me.
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| Self-Detriment |
[10 Aug 2004|04:23am] |
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mood |
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 depressed |
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music |
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Bjork - "Enjoy" |
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"The gods are just, and of our pleasant vices
Make instruments to plague us."
William Shakespeare (1564 - 1616), "King Lear", Act 5 scene 3
It seems like more and more as the days go on I get tired of the same activities. I grow tired of the same people. I am ill of my situation.
Indulging in those Seven Vices is all I have to keep me alive.
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| Deadly Sins |
[03 Aug 2004|05:05am] |
A CHECKLIST FOR SUCCESS
________________________
Pride:
Pronunciation: 'prId
Function: noun
1 : the quality or state of being proud: as a : inordinate self-esteem : CONCEIT b : a reasonable or justifiable self-respect c : delight or elation arising from some act, possession, or relationship
( Envy: )
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